Where Did I Loose My Sleep? Cork Memories & Time To Go Home

   First of all, I am so so so ashamed, because I promised myself to be much more active on my blog this year. And here I am... Two weeks completely with not even a word! I mean - I really have a big dream to inspire people with my posts one day, but it's a long long way before that happens and I'm even not putting enough effort!

   But, of course, I have a great excuse - last two weeks have been absolutely mind-blowing and busy. Seriously - these 14 days passed like one big "wait, what was this" thing :)

   There were long hours of work during week and the weekend was so full of different unexpected things, that only today, on Friday 13th I can appreciate a relaxing night. In front of me I have my luggage packed (tomorrow 9 a.m. there we go), I have my cup of tea (why no wine) and I have Royskopp on my playlist - what can be better? As for today - nothing. I need a rest, I'd say. I really need!

  So, now there is a time for great story. Well, nooo, a great photo-story of Sunday trip to Kinsale I'll keep for next week. I already imagine how I'm back to Krakow, wrapped in a blanket , with a huge huge coffee mug - writing a post about that absolutely amazing small sea town. It was such a beautiful and adventurous day - don't miss my next post, you won't regret it, I promise ;)

  Going back home after two weeks being away always gives this nice comfy feeling, I'm really happy. But at the same time I had such a good time in Ireland, that I could stay here a little longer. You know, maybe until spring starts in Poland :) In spring I can come back with no regrets! 

   And nooow, I'm pushing away as much as I can thoughts about cold Krakow and I start being positive! You know, I noticed that trying to be positive is already half of work done! As they say - when you start feeling sad, you stop feeling sad and being awesome instead :) And now I'm going to share some photos from last weekend. I actually rented amazing (!!!) apartment in Victorian style right in the city center (thanks a million, Airbnb). The other fact is that I didn't spend too much time there, but still - it was worth even just to come inside, jump on a large bed, watch the interior and listen to few songs. This was really really cool :) After I left I started thinking of my own apartment goals (I hope I'll have one someday) - and I will make all my interior design dreams come true one hundred times then. But first I need to figure out at least a country, where I want to settle down :D After I do that, I'll think of apartment goals.

   Oh well, oh well, this post seems to be about everything and nothing, which I don't really like. So I want to finish it with some wise words. I indeed have some. You know what I think about this year? I think the time has come to be more sure, that we are worth what we want. I think the time has come, when we can take things, that we really really want to happen (but for some reasons we have no courage to believe in them) - and... make them happen. Or at least give it a try. Because you never know! In 75% good things that happened to me where things, that I didn't expect to happen, but those also were things, to which I was trying to go, trying to reach them. Not just denying, saying "nooo, i don't want to disappoint myself". Well maybe we should disappoint ourselves from time to time? What if things won't work out? But what if they do?

   I have as a minimum one thing on my mind and I definitely will try to make this work. Even if I fail, than what? I failed sooo many times (I'd say epic failed haha) that this doesn't even bother me. All of us fail sometimes. But not this time :)

   I hope all of You had amazing start of new year. And if you didn't - start now, start having amazing year exactly from this moment :) 

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p.p.s. I just now realized that the title of this article is "Where Did I Loose My Sleep" and I didn't say a word about it :) I'm a blogger of the year! Really, where did I loose my sleep? I ask myself. It's been already a week since I slept more than three hours at night. Is it just because I'm to excited about things going on in my life, I have no idea, but it's so so sooooo annoying! But tonight, tonight I gonna sleep like a baby, I promise myself :)

   Now back to apartment. Isn't it beautiful?

   

  And Cork. Cork is just ... 

...So here we go,

Heroes or ghosts one man's mood

Can break another man's soul

Or am I just

Too cynical for my own good,

Too scared to say,

We'll get there if we should

And you know, you know,

It's harder than it looks,

It's harder than it looks

But I know,

It's gonna take a lot of time and a little bit of luck...

+TheCoronasVEVO 

Midnight Cooking... Or First Steps To Going Vegan

   So, guys, we make decisions every single day. Sometimes we make up our minds very fast and then let's say, we're obsessed with some idea, we say "ok, starting from tomorrow things will change" but then... next morning our inspiration vanishes somewhere even faster than it appeared! Happened to you? Oh yes, happened to me as well. Many times :)

   But there actually ARE some decisions, that grow up in our heads slowly, with full understanding of WHAT we are doing and WHY we are doing this. I'm not gonna dig deeply into the topic of veganism, it's pros end cones etc. I'll probably make a separate post about this whole thing - including the root cause and consequences. But this will be later.

   

   Today I just want to share an idea of an extremely healthy, easy, tasty breakfast, and on top of that - really fast one! Because come on, we don't want to waste time on making breakfast forever... Actually, this "something" you can cook once in a big portion and then keep it for about a month and it still will be ok :) And this "something" is called homemade granola.

   Yeah, just one note, it's probably only for sweet-breakfasts lovers... Reminded me of guys from my work, they're like: "Miaaaaa what's that? Are we birds or something?" :) Well, not birds, but birds would definitely eat that too, I guess...

   So, biggest part of it is grocery shopping. Here's the approx list of what you can buy (and feel free to add some other things), that's just my quick version:

•    Oatmeal (rolled oats, slow cooking - I mean those in bigger pieces)
•    Maple/Date syrup (you can replace it with honey, but it won't be vegan anymore)
•    Vegetable oil (coconut or.... I chose palm oil - it's awesome or olive oil will do as well)
•    Sunflower, pumpkin seeds
•    Nuts, nuts, nuts (whichever you have - just chop them)
•    Dry fruits (raisins or anything you like)
•    Coconut strips
•    Flax seeds
•    Vanilla extract

Pretty much it. Now you have it all and you can go on and heat the oven to 150 C.

Recipe is as easy as you can imagine. First of all, mix 2 big spoons of oil + 150ml maple syrup + vanilla extract (1 tbsp.) + a pack of oatmeal (about 400g)... Mix it like that :)

Add the nuts and seeds. Don't add coconut and/or dried fruit yet...

Mix it again (wow, this becomes complicated) and place it on a foil before putting to the oven...

This one above is with extra date syrup, because I really like it SWEET :)

Bake it for some 10-15 min, then add coconut strips and raisins and let it bake for another 10min or so...

And voilà! Your personal granola is ready. Now you can put it in nice fancy jars and you'll have breakfast ready for next week or two :) 

   It goes well with water or milk (I mean almond or coconut), but I personally just pour some water and put it to the microwave for 30 sec. And then I just enjoy it while reading my e-mails with a large, no... HUGE cup of morning coffee :)

   And a really quick post, took me 15 minutes in total :)

   Bon Appétit! 

p.s. see you soon...

p.p.s. this really tastes good and it doesn't contain any sh*t they usually put in packed products :) 

Growth Happens Down In The Valley

   How many people have you met on your way during all your life? Hard to say, I guess? I have no idea - probably we should count by thousands? 

    How many of them do you remember? I can count in hundreds... 

    How many of them brought really something special? Something unforgettable? Twenty, maybe thirty?

    How many changed your life? I am talking about those, who were some kind of "final chapters" of every small story. Like after meeting them, next day you change and never be previous "you" ever again... And also I'm not talking about those, who made you happy or unhappy - that is a usual thing. I'm saying about something irreversible... Those who opened a "new deep" inside of you - no matter if it was a positive or negative experience, but it was remarkable and not knowing about this, since tomorrow you are new you.

  A Teacher. Each of us went to school long time ago, each of us today regret not studying geography, chemistry or history :) But I'm extremely lucky to have met a person, who taught me not only English (for my English - separate thank you as well) - but yeah, she awoke in my teenage head a strong willing to move forward, to never listen what people say (when they start saying you can't do something), she developed my ability to learn languages very fast, and I'm so grateful! The funny thing is that I tried to find this woman after many years with no contact, to say thank you, but I couldn't... Apparently life plays not fair sometimes (who am I fooling? it plays unfair all the time!) and people simply disappear. For many reasons, for the reason of unbearable lightness of being if you want.

   A Love-Of-Your-Life. Not necessary with a happy end. That's not the case. But probably because it is full of very bipolar emotions - that is why it is usually so special. Literally - it is like standing under the shower where boiling water changes to ice. Because of this you can't see reality. And because of the shock - you feel nor pain, neither pleasure... Then it ends up, but it reveals some true things in your soul, and may this sound like a bullshit or just like another "vanilla" phrase - but it is like that, indeed... And this is something I feel lucky to happen to me. You should know, where is the end of your feelings! Even if it hurts! You will see then, what you value the most and what are your principles (unbreakable, if there are...)

   A Biggest Disappointment. Yeah I know, this is definitely somebody you are not looking forward to meet! But, God, I'm so so happy I did! Because very often, when everything goes well in our life, we get relaxed... We trust too much, we put less efforts, we start seeing what we want to see, fooling ourselves. And yes, we are happy! And this is amazing, just because I like to be happy, you like to be happy, everyone does! But there is a moment, when we do too much! Too much of relax, to much talking, too much of pink glasses, too much of shit... And then life decides to give you a lesson. And of course it happens not in the most comfortable moment haha... It's a "kind reminder" that relaxing in this world is the last thing to do. It's a "kind reminder" that trust in not a thing you can give to every second human-being you meet. It's a very "kind reminder" to stay on the ground. And at first you may be angry, when you let to betray yourself like a last looser on Earth, but after some time this seems very right. Turn your wounds into wisdom, as they say and I have nothing, but agree!

     A Friend. To be honest, last three years was quite a big test for friendship in my life, because moving here and there, leaving places and finding new gives hard times for any relationship! When I used to live in Ukraine, I thought I have so many "friends", but they vanished after few months after I left my hometown, Others stayed, and I still love them, and they do love me, but they are not in my life anymore in a practical way :) When we meet twice a year, I feel like a small happy dog, that finally saw his owner after a long day, I really really love these people! But all of us have different lives and it's a little sad, but still we are so happy for each other, when some of us are getting married, having new job or whatever - I can't imagine my life without those emotions! But there is still one lady, whom I would call at 3a.m. if to say I'm in love or that I urgently need new shoes. And no matter the distance, for the last few years we share so many bright memories together, that I could wright a whole book :) The title would be "Oh, I was soooo thirsty, but he's from Katowice", but this is totally different story :) 

     A Soulmate. So well, honestly speaking, this is somebody I didn't meet yet, but I know I will, because there must be such :) Somebody, with whom I could risk everything I have. Somebody, who will help me to pack all my life in one big suitcase and move, move, move. Somebody, who has the same as I - inability to stay at one place. And definitely somebody who doesn't dream of settling down in a nice house somewhere outside the city:) Which is of course, and awesome plan, but for sure not mine. Yeah, I urgently need somebody to help me turning my current life mode upside-down. Just because a perfect order is something that makes me sure - I'm going in a perfectly wrong direction...

     And I know one day I will leave this place and never come back, because there are no coming backs after you meet certain people :)

    

    

   

Such A Lonely Day

Я чекаю від цієї зими пригод, а ще мене не покидає відчуття, що скоро станеться Щось Цікаве. І моє життя круто повернеться, хоча б на якихось 90 градусів:) А чого чекаєте ви?

Chris Daughtry – On The Inside

Почну з того, що мене дуже приємно дивує той факт, що останнім часом я все частіше чую позитивні відгуки про свій блог. Я чесно рада, що всякі-різні мої думки знаходять відповідь і емоції в інших людях:) З іншої сторони - це несподівано, бо коли я починала тут писати, то такої цілі я собі не ставила. І ще - чим більше я отримую відгуків, тим важче мені придумати, про що написати. Тепер виходить так - починаю писати і через десять речень задумуюсь, кому це буде цікаво, стираю весь текст і настрій до писання зовсім пропадає. То так неправильно і я так більше робити не буду. Тому тепер я знов скидуватиму сюди все підряд, що приходить мені в голову:) 

Не люблю я збиратись кудись, пакувати валізи, думати про перше, друге, третє...Що не забути, що встигнути,  а при цьому найгірше - час йде так швидко, що я не встигаю абсолютно ні-чо-го.

І так, що я маю? Поооовний хаос в моїй кімнаті, і такий самий хаос в голові. Нічого дивного в цьому нема, це ж я. Я вже звикла до того, що слово "порядок" не відноситься до мене ніякою стороною.

Погано те, що я їду не в ту сторону, в яку хотілося б. А в протилежну (географічно, я маю на увазі). Погано те, що як завжди мені здається, ніби я знаю чого хочу. А насправді я і в цьому не впевнена. Ну не дає мені спокою думка про те, що постійно є як мінімум два варіанти. Можна вибрати щось інше і результат буде іншим. І так кожного разу, коли треба вибирати між чимось і чимось. А вибирати можна завжди і то якесь замкнуте коло виходить, я аж сама заплуталась.

Добре те, що попереду багато часу зробити ще сто тисяч виборів. Що є люди, через яких хочеться щось вибирати. Та й взагалі - життя таке класне, якщо на нього правильно дивитись.

Є тільки одна річ (то навіть не річ, але пофіг), яку вибрати не можна - це ми самі. Що б я не вибирала, куди б не їхала і з ким би не була - я це завжди я. Цьому можна радіти, а можна просто змиритися:) Більше нічого тут не придумаєш.

Цілий вечір сьогодні слухаю ту пісню, вона якраз в тему.

So you can move to another town
Hide where you're sure you won't be found
But it's still just you on the inside
You can pretend it'll be alright
Said it to yourself but you know it's just a lie
Cause it's still just you on the inside,
Still you on the inside...

Поки я зберу речі, то напевно пройде вічність, люблю ж я відволікатися на всяку фігню)

п.с. Я колись писала тут про мрії і всяке таке. Ну що ж, можу привітати себе. Бо поїхати на навчання кудись за межі України - то була принаймні моя шкільна ціль, якщо не мрія. І от зараз я за два дні до втілення тої цілі в життя. І що з того? Тепер в мене є нова ціль, яка взагалі суперечить всьому, що зараз відбувається. Хаха, тому я зробила з того єдиний висновок. Поки зі мною є я (а це надовго) - нічого не зміниться. І мені це подобається. Мені принаймні не буває скучно:)

п.п.с. Наступний пост, який я опублікую через декілька днів (я сподіваюся на то, якщо в мене буде доступ до інтернету) має бути цікавим, обіцяю! Всім вдалих вихідних, бажаю провести їх з тими, хто на це заслуговує:)) 

п.п.п.с. Дякую, що читаєте і за відгуки теж дякую!