Energy From Within... Or French Breakfasts Are The Best

   “I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet.” 

― Jack London

   When you think of a human being from a physical point of view – we are just a bunch of atoms. And then, what is an atom? Piece of matter. And when these pieces of energy collide - there is a splash of energy, which appears in some magical way. Same with people. We collide and create energy.

   It’s a beautiful Saturday morning, I decided to be a little like Carrie Bradshow today, so I woke up at 8, quickly packed my laptop to my bag and now, here I am, sitting at Charlotte, eating delicious french breakfast and  watching people collide. It’s just amazing to think that everything around me is just a sum of atoms, simple as it is – flows of energy, which interact in all possible ways. It’s crazy, if you think about it and try to understand... How does this work?

   And yes, I’m sitting here all alone. And no, I don’t feel lonely. And yes, I love spending time on my own – thinking, observing, learning something new. My life taught me, that this can be pretty cool. It’s such a rush around, everyone’s talking, laughing, nice music playing (as always in Charlotte) and I’m writing this post and inside I’m smiling – because I feel just right. Like everything around me is not happening for real. Strange feeling, anyways.

   Being alone from time to time - is kind of experience you can’t replace with anything on Earth. I mean, don’t get me wrong – I’m super social person, I can talk hours and hours, I love meeting new people and being with my friends. But there are just days and moments, when I need time for myself. 

   Coming back to atoms – I still can’t fully get it.How do emotions work? How does love work? I regret not learning physics at school, it could explain a lot now...
    Love, anger, happiness - are all those things simple result of atoms interactions? I always thought that emotions are not connected with logic. But what if it's a simple combination of laws of physics, chemistry and math rules? We meet somebody - our minds and bodies create energy, it comes from within and crushes into this stranger. There can be chemical reaction, There may be not... But if there is - we change, and never come back to previous state of mind. Then, according to probability theory there are millions of ways what can happen. One of them says "they lived happily ever after", but the chances are not that high. And it's not destiny, not some extra power - that's just math. If you try adding some logic, chances go even closer to zero... 

   Same with work. Same with all you love to do, your passions - you create energy and invest it, hoping it'll pay off. Hoping everything will work out. Dreaming. Giving more than receiving.
    And all together this makes our life. Math, physics, love, passion... Again passion, work, energy. And all over again. This is what life is about. And it is complicated (at least for me).

    Apart from this - it was a really nice October day! And with all the work and routine I completely forgot to look around and appreciate the city I live in. The moments I have to experience. To share with others and with myself. Krakow is beautiful and... full of energy :)